Monday, December 12, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
Hi bloggie,
Long time no see.
Im here to rant.
I'm homeless.
And it sucks.
And I'm tired.
And noone can understands this.
It's making me really upset.
Been staying at J's house for the past few days/weeks.
Then something's going on in J's place, I bumped into E's place.
And it sucks, because E thinks that I'm only there coz I can't bumped in J's place.
I want my own place. I want my own home. I want my own room.
Do you know the comfort zone that you room provides you? That however long you're away, but when you're there, you know it's right.
It's not only that. My social commitment is killing me. I have to slot in some time for everyone.
I'm so tired and it's sucking up all my energy. It sucks to drive an hour to work and another hour to go home.
There's this thing called the Social Hierarchy where you place whoever's more important on top of the list and you work your way down. What Im referring too is allocating time for them.
I hardly have time for myself anymore.
When Im home from work, I have to plan my attire and breakfast for tomorrow and after dinner, I just want to sleep. I work from 10am to 7pm from Sunday to Thursday. When I'm home, whoever's house is it, I just want to rest. But I'm not getting it. I'm trying to fulfill my social obligation towards whoever's house I'm staying. And mind you, when J wanted to watch an episode of Vampire Diaries, I was so reluctant and yet, I said okay and watched til the end. After that, I knocked out within 60 seconds and remembered nothing.
This is the type of exhausted where I start getting backache all the time and constantly becoming a whiny bitch. I am at the point where I can just blow my top any moment. And yet, I contained it all. Last night, I really really couldnt tolerate it anymore, I cried to sleep. It was a night of self pity. Where you kept thinking of how sucky life it, and can't count my own blessings at all.
Work is difficult and I hate it when I cant get things right or do it myself. I placed in even more efforts. I skipped lunch everyday, because when everyone's not in office, I tend to be more productive. By 6pm, I can feel the lethargic-ness kicking in already. And the thought of getting stuck in another hour in the traffic jam, pushed the depression to an even lower level.
I have so many friends to allocate time too now. Plus with new colleagues and all, I can't slot it. My girls have this thing called the Saturday brunch, where we all must empty our calendar for luncheon together. Tomorrow is a Saturday. I have this luncheon with them, and later, I have to attend my colleague's house warming party which involves alcohol and so on. And at night, I have to attend my high school friend's farewell to Taiwan. I dont know what to do. I cant say no to any of those. I hardly see Rafique and Terence anymore because I dont have the time and energy. When E was in Shanghai, all I had to do was manage J. But with work at all, I cant even manage J alone. Now with all back here in KL, I don't know what to do anymore.
Basically, it's not really much of an issue, but it's all sucking up the happiness in me. I hope everything would be fine. I know, for sure, that I will be able to cope with this and I will definitely rock this. I need to hang on to it until everything settles down to a comfortable level. I don't know when, but it will come.
All I want now, is my own zone. I really need my time alone. My time off. My moments.
Im juggling with work and blogshop and workload is even crazier because partner was away. After reaching the parking lot in my office, I stayed in my car and replies all the emails and my toilet breaks. After that I got to pack and get it all ready for deliveries. Honestly, it's tired. It's tiring that I constantly have to plan my schedule. I cannot give everyone and everything a part of me, because right now, it's killing me.
Long time no see.
Im here to rant.
I'm homeless.
And it sucks.
And I'm tired.
And noone can understands this.
It's making me really upset.
Been staying at J's house for the past few days/weeks.
Then something's going on in J's place, I bumped into E's place.
And it sucks, because E thinks that I'm only there coz I can't bumped in J's place.
I want my own place. I want my own home. I want my own room.
Do you know the comfort zone that you room provides you? That however long you're away, but when you're there, you know it's right.
It's not only that. My social commitment is killing me. I have to slot in some time for everyone.
I'm so tired and it's sucking up all my energy. It sucks to drive an hour to work and another hour to go home.
There's this thing called the Social Hierarchy where you place whoever's more important on top of the list and you work your way down. What Im referring too is allocating time for them.
I hardly have time for myself anymore.
When Im home from work, I have to plan my attire and breakfast for tomorrow and after dinner, I just want to sleep. I work from 10am to 7pm from Sunday to Thursday. When I'm home, whoever's house is it, I just want to rest. But I'm not getting it. I'm trying to fulfill my social obligation towards whoever's house I'm staying. And mind you, when J wanted to watch an episode of Vampire Diaries, I was so reluctant and yet, I said okay and watched til the end. After that, I knocked out within 60 seconds and remembered nothing.
This is the type of exhausted where I start getting backache all the time and constantly becoming a whiny bitch. I am at the point where I can just blow my top any moment. And yet, I contained it all. Last night, I really really couldnt tolerate it anymore, I cried to sleep. It was a night of self pity. Where you kept thinking of how sucky life it, and can't count my own blessings at all.
Work is difficult and I hate it when I cant get things right or do it myself. I placed in even more efforts. I skipped lunch everyday, because when everyone's not in office, I tend to be more productive. By 6pm, I can feel the lethargic-ness kicking in already. And the thought of getting stuck in another hour in the traffic jam, pushed the depression to an even lower level.
I have so many friends to allocate time too now. Plus with new colleagues and all, I can't slot it. My girls have this thing called the Saturday brunch, where we all must empty our calendar for luncheon together. Tomorrow is a Saturday. I have this luncheon with them, and later, I have to attend my colleague's house warming party which involves alcohol and so on. And at night, I have to attend my high school friend's farewell to Taiwan. I dont know what to do. I cant say no to any of those. I hardly see Rafique and Terence anymore because I dont have the time and energy. When E was in Shanghai, all I had to do was manage J. But with work at all, I cant even manage J alone. Now with all back here in KL, I don't know what to do anymore.
Basically, it's not really much of an issue, but it's all sucking up the happiness in me. I hope everything would be fine. I know, for sure, that I will be able to cope with this and I will definitely rock this. I need to hang on to it until everything settles down to a comfortable level. I don't know when, but it will come.
All I want now, is my own zone. I really need my time alone. My time off. My moments.
Im juggling with work and blogshop and workload is even crazier because partner was away. After reaching the parking lot in my office, I stayed in my car and replies all the emails and my toilet breaks. After that I got to pack and get it all ready for deliveries. Honestly, it's tired. It's tiring that I constantly have to plan my schedule. I cannot give everyone and everything a part of me, because right now, it's killing me.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
BBQ
Most pictures are in Facebook.
I'm at a point in life where I don't know what to blog.
Life's been pretty good, except the fact that my Islamic banking result will be out this Friday.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
The crazy duo..
*was referring to my sister and I8
in action!
We think we're greater than any other chefs!
Muahahaha.
We prepared a feast!
We made the guacamole for the nachos
We roasted lemon and herb chicken too.
And pasta too.
Check the prewwwttty chicken!
There you go,
we have a feast!
Me love nachos like mad!
THE CHICKEN!
Yummyy!
The pasta was so-so :D
The next day,
we tried baking a blueberry cake!
The first layer
The second layer
The cream and blueberries
Muahahaahahah
Nice, isn't it?
ta ddah!
Jason don't believe it!
Wanna have a slice of our heaven? :D
Took the next flight home on the day of my last paper
And a few days later, I'm in Langkawi.
Mum, Uncle Naim and myself went to Langkawi.
Mind you, we got the entire upper deck to ourselves!
Mind you, we got the entire upper deck to ourselves!
The two ladies enjoying the wind
Upon arrival,
They had to do some work and went to the office.
And they dumped me at a dead shopping mall.
And they dumped me at a dead shopping mall.
The only thing I had with me,
Was my cookie monster.
Then off to the Langkawi Yatch Club for lunch
Suprisingly, there were most Asian food than Western.
After lunch,
We went fishing.
It was really hot, and I caught only two!
The evening view when we're gonna go back home :)
My prewwtty slippers!
Okay, the emphasis wasnt on my face. It's on the earrings :p
How can one not drink in Langkawi right?
Oh well, all I had was a bottle.
Sad, isn't it?
Mum was dead tired and KO-ed.
And cookie monster accompanied me til late night.
And the next time,
We went for yatch hunting
Coz mummy's friend wanna get one
The weather is darn hot.
We went back after that.
It was a business trip for mummy and I just tagged along and she brought me fishing.
Nothing much.
POKER NIGHT!
Muahahaaha. I have our own poker team already!
Lup Yan picked me up in his Honda Insight.
It's so pretty inside there!
This time,
the game was horrifying!
..
This guy.....
Really...
His got quads.
And this time,
I lost.
And mind you, I lost all my buy in within the hour.. or less.
And a nice guy, named Jia Loong said..
Nah, Joandee, I give u some chips to play.
LOL
Before going back Alor Star, I went on a drinking spree.
And it got bad. :)
It all started in Zouk4play.
Ivy, Janics and I went on a crazy drinking spree.
And I don't recall being this wasted for the longest time ever.
Instead of drunk dialling me (*I dont do that), I spammed a bunch of craps on whatsapp. I don't even remember whatever I was writing, and mind you, the next day I tried reading what I wrote.
I can't understand a single word. Pity someone got worried over it
And it got bad. :)
It all started in Zouk4play.
Ivy, Janics and I went on a crazy drinking spree.
And I don't recall being this wasted for the longest time ever.
Instead of drunk dialling me (*I dont do that), I spammed a bunch of craps on whatsapp. I don't even remember whatever I was writing, and mind you, the next day I tried reading what I wrote.
I can't understand a single word. Pity someone got worried over it
It was like that the whole night.
One hand Moet, another hand Heineken.
And shots.
Pfft.....!
The next day, I was supposed to go for 7aste.
It's the event I'll never miss.
But I did missed it this time.
I was sobering up from a horrible hangover.
There goes my Friday.
On Saturday,
It was the GT Sepang Rave Party
The troops went in 3 cars.
Henry picked Evvon and Michelle up.
Jia Loong picked me with Cynthia
Ivy and Janics in another car.
We didnt enjoy it and off to Zouk.
And I was pulling a long face the whole night,
coz I was hungry!
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I took a picture of this and sent it to a friend.
He sent this back to me.
HAHAHAHAA. I laughed my butt off.
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